It’s been like ages since I wrote in English. At first, I thought I didn’t have time to write one. I felt I was too busy to even start writing a short piece. However, at the end of the day, I realized that I was too lazy to make one. So, here I am, trying to write something.
I make my own living through writing. Writing is something I need and have to do to earn money. Of course, there are times I get what people say as writer’s block. Writer’s block, according to Oxford’s English dictionary, is defined as the condition of being unable to think of what to write or how to proceed with writing. In my case, that condition always comes and goes. I feel overwhelmed and frustrated at the same time when I have to deal with writer’s block. Like it or not, I need to embrace that condition to keep me going and keep me writing every day.
There are some situations when writing seems like a burden to me. When that happens, I plan to just give up on writing. I feel devastated when people judge my writing before they even read it. I get frustrated when no one reads my writing after I put lots of efforts in the making. It saddens my heart when my writing is only valued by the number of clicks on the internet. Well, I cannot deny the fact that I always need rewards for every piece of writing I string up. It can be in the form of money or simply an appreciation. Some days I can be very passionate to create meaningful contents. But, some days I feel I don’t have any energy to type just one word.
When it’s so hard to start writing a new one, I need something more liberating. I prefer writing on my blog to writing on my social media accounts. So, I don’t need to bother myself to see how many people leave comments or respond to my thoughts. I even deleted one of social media accounts for the sake of maintaining my sanity. To gain happiness through writing, I need to write something that gives me joys. Small joys matter. Writing random things can be liberating. Write like no one would judge. That can be a simple solution for me to keep on going.
Back then, I used to have a journal. Journaling really helps me through bad days. Journaling elevates my mood. I’ve dreamed to be a writer since I was a teenager. Writer is like a cool profession. A cool job that is always enjoyable. But, a job is a job. There are times when we feel burned out because of our job. There are times we are distressed upon things related to our job.
Writing has always been a part of my life. When I feel down or stuck on my writing job, I simply write something by thinking that no one would judge. Free writing is one of my ways to relieve my stress.
I don’t have any plans to quit writing. Not at all. Really. I want to keep writing for the rest of my life. Maybe this time, I need to set new priorities. Finding new ways and opportunities to make my writing more meaningful. Presenting new values through my writing.