“As I grow older, much older, I will experience many things, and I will hit rock bottom again and again. Again and again I will suffer; again and again I will get back on my feet. I will not be defeated. I won’t let my spirit be destroyed.” 

 Banana Yoshimoto, Kitchen

How old are you now?

I never expect myself to be terrified of growing up. Functioning as an adult is scary. Taking a new risk is not fun anymore. Going to new places seems dangerous. I always never satisfied with everything I do.

This year, I’m embracing myself to leave my 20s. At this point, I feel like everything goes by so quickly. I realize I’ve missed many valuable opportunities. I haven’t made the most of my life. Things are fading away. My future is just right here but it looks so blurry.

People keep asking me many questions. But at the same time, they begin to stop asking certain questions. I might be too late for certain things. Thus, I cannot blame everyone for asking things that actually make me sad.

I guess I just feel like
The joke’s gettin’ old
The future is fading
And the past is on hold

I Guess I Just Feel Like, John Mayer

Time is ticking and it becomes scarier as days go by. Growing older is simply a phase of my life. I cannot deny the fact that I become more scared of many things. However, I need to keep walking forward.